i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me — e.e. cummings

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Happy Birthday to my dear husband–best friend and soul mate.

If you want to share a love story (either a favorite book/poem or from personal experience), it will earn you bonus entries* in my “Celebration of Love” Giveaway.

*Number of extra entries decided by my secret panel of judges πŸ˜‰

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15 thoughts on “i carry your heart with me

  1. Hira Hasnain says:

    Also, here’s a picture of the letter that he wrote to me…I hope it brings a smile to someone’s face, it never fails to bring a smile to mine! πŸ™‚

  2. Hira Hasnain says:

    Hey Liza,

    What a lovely poem to choose for the man you love. I remember when I first read that poem, I yearned to feel that way about someone. And then 6 years ago, that someone walked into my life. He became my best friend, and we were inseparable during medical school – but little did I know, he wasn’t just my best friend, he was my angel. I know this sounds absolutely made up, and sickly sweet…but he actually saved my life. No, not just saving my life by becoming the reason for me to live (that too, actually)…but actually reviving me in a moment where I could not breathe! The whole world around us told us “You two are soulmates! Again, why aren’t you two together?” And we always replied the same way, “What we have is perfect, you can’t enhance perfection – we don’t want to change anything about the way things are!”

    But the fact is, we were scared. We’d both been through so many relationships that fell apart, and some were very painful – so we’d both built a wall around ourselves. We’d both become complacent, content with being single. And yet, even in our loneliness, we were together. Years passed, and we denied ourselves anything more than a platonic relationship – continuing to try our hands at relationships with other people, and never succeeding. And then, medical school was over, and we returned to our subsequent hometowns (he to Chicago, and I returned to Los Angeles) – and that’s when we both truly realized each other’s worth. After being apart, and pining for each other, and missing each other for almost two years, I met up with him in Chicago when I went up there for a convention. And just laying there in each other’s arms…I realized, that although there was a wall around my heart, he’d been the only one who I’d allowed access to, within those bounds. He didn’t have to break down the wall…because he was never outside of it. And I turned to him, and told him, ” I love you so much, and I’ll never find someone who loves me like you do – so I guess I’ll never get married!” And he simply turned to me and said, “Well, then marry me!”

    I am sharing with you, something that he wrote to me last year in October.

    “There is no love, no bond, or connection stronger than what we have. The fact that I get to experience that in my lifetime, the mere thought of it, makes me smile. There is nothing about our relationship which can be said is normal – but knowing both you and myself, that is no surprise. I just wanted to say thank you for allowing me to feel loved so completely, and so wholly accepted. For seeing all that is ugly and never making a face or turning away. I love you Hira, and I thank you for teaching me it’s okay, normal even, to tell people that.

    Your best friend, your partner in crime, and forever and always, your vigilant angel,
    Adeel Siddiqui”

    I share this with you, and anyone who has ever doubted love. I had given up on it, and then there it was. He was just a friend…and now he is my world! I pray, I honestly pray that EVERY ONE is able to experience that – because that feeling is unmatched by any other emotion in the world! πŸ™‚

    • Liza Kane says:

      “He was just a friend…and now he is my world! I pray, I honestly pray that EVERY ONE is able to experience that – because that feeling is unmatched by any other emotion in the world!”

      I love that, and absolutely agree πŸ˜€

      Thank you so much for sharing your love story here! (and I agree with your friends…I would’ve probably asked: “Why aren’t you together?” as well πŸ˜‰ )

  3. Ollin says:

    Aww, so happy that you have someone special in your life. I’m always curious to ask people in those relationships what you think makes it work. I know some of us {me I should say} are single and have had trouble making romantic relationships work. I have my theories, and my friends who have really great relationships have weighed in, but I am always curious to hear your point of view.

    {Read: PLEASE HELP ME!}

    Hahaha! Probably has nothing to do with your blog, but maybe you could write a post about it. If you do, let me know when its up. Thanks! And happy birthday to your husband!

    • Liza Kane says:

      Hi Ollin!

      Hm. Well, I guess it would have been fitting that I shared my story as I asked others to share theirs!

      Until I’m able to blog about it though, let me just say that Hubs and I are best friends. And, like best friends, we are ridiculously supportive of and respectful toward each other.
      We met in college and we rolled in the same circle of friends. I loved that he was not only smart and witty (valedictorian in hs/summa cum laude in college) but was also concerned with health and fitness (I *may* have enjoyed his rippling muscles :D). If you asked him, he would say that he was attracted to me (his words: “who’s that hot chick?”) and was intrigued (read: infuriated) by the fact that I had no problems proving him wrong. (No worries: he’s come to accept that I’m right about everything, ha!)

      I think we were both drawn to each other because we each displayed behaviors that we personally value highly: intelligence, independence, integrity. We stayed together because we agree on the things that matter (values, philosophies on life, etc) and respect each other enough not to obsess over the things that don’t (chores,hobbies, etc).

      I know that the media likes to perpetuate that “marriage is hard”. But honestly? With the right person? It’s really not.

      I hope you find your best friend soon, but until then, continue on your MIP path: be the person you would want to be with.

      Thanks for stopping by, Ollin…strength and courage to you!

      • Ollin says:

        Aw, thanks for responding! That sounds nice. Yeah, that’s basically what I hear from my friends who are married or in great relationships. Thanks for sharing that.

      • Kayla Olson says:

        Just wanted to say that I agree 100% with what Liza says here. My husband and I have been super-happily married for about four years now and a lot of what Liza described above describes us, too. The other thing that helped was to learn how to conflict wellβ€”we assume the best in each other, listen well, and are calm communicators. Good luck, Ollin! πŸ™‚

  4. Ashley Holt says:

    I KNOW THIS IS KIND OF WEIRD BUT IF YOU HAVE EVER WATCHED UP BY PIXAR I KNOW THE MOVIE IS NOT A LOVE STORY BUT THE RELATIONSHIP SHARED BY CARL & ELLIE IS ,IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND LOVELY IN ITSELF. IT REMINDS ME ALOT OF MY GRANDPARENTS AND HOW EVEN AFTER THE PASSING OF MY GRANDMERE AND YES MY GRANDPERE IS GRUMPY (GRUMPA HEHEHE) HE STILL FINDS JOY IN LIFE BECAUSE SO MANY THINGS REMIND HIM OF HER….

    I HOPE TO FIND A LOVE THAT STRONG ONE THAT EXISTS BEYOND EXISTENCE!!!!

    fav line-
    YOU HAVE TO LET LOVE SPILL AND CRACK OPEN SO EVERYONE CAN DROWN IN THIS LOVE…

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