i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me — e.e. cummings

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Happy Birthday to my dear husband–best friend and soul mate.

If you want to share a love story (either a favorite book/poem or from personal experience), it will earn you bonus entries* in my “Celebration of Love” Giveaway.

*Number of extra entries decided by my secret panel of judges 😉

Celebrating My Love

Happy Birthday Love Heart

Image by Status Frustration via Flickr

Tomorrow is my dear husband’s birthday, and, in honor of The Hubs, and the fact that I love him and all that 😉 , I’m giving away a copy of Ally Condie’s Matched and Lauren Oliver’s Delirium.

The Books

First, a little bit about these books…

Matched, from Goodreads:

“Cassia has always trusted the Society to make the right choices for her: what to read, what to watch, what to believe. So when Xander’s face appears on-screen at her Matching ceremony, Cassia knows with complete certainty that he is her ideal mate . . . until she sees Ky Markham’s face flash for an instant before the screen fades to black.

The Society tells her it’s a glitch, a rare malfunction, and that she should focus on the happy life she’s destined to lead with Xander. But Cassia can’t stop thinking about Ky, and as they slowly fall in love, Cassia begins to doubt the Society’s infallibility and is faced with an impossible choice: between Xander and Ky, between the only life she’s known and a path that no one else has dared to follow.”

Delirium, from Goodreads:

“Before scientists found the cure, people thought love was a good thing. They didn’t understand that once love — the deliria — blooms in your blood, there is no escaping its hold. Things are different now. Scientists are able to eradicate love, and the governments demands that all citizens receive the cure upon turning eighteen. Lena Holoway has always looked forward to the day when she’ll be cured. A life without love is a life without pain: safe, measured, predictable, and happy.

But with ninety-five days left until her treatment, Lena does the unthinkable: She falls in love.”

Now, I know that both of these books are set in dystopian worlds with authoritative governments that divine a citizen’s life partner.  But, let’s focus on the fact that each main character CHOOSES whom she loves, and draw the parallel from there. 😉

The Rules*

So, the giveaway will be pretty straightforward.

It’s open from now till Saturday, April 9, 2011, 11:59PM EST, and I will ship to addresses within the continental US to wherever the Book Depository ships (please see if your country is listed here).

There will be two winners.  The first winner gets first choice of either book; the second winner will get the other one.

Whoever wants to participate, leave me a comment (one entry/comment per person, please).  (For bonus entries, stay tuned for tomorrow’s blog post.)

I will pick the two winners via random.org (unless some bonus entries sway my secret panel of judges otherwise).  Obviously, it’s important that I know your email, or other reliable way to contact you.  If I can’t get a hold of you within 24 hours, I will choose someone else.

That’s it!

If you don’t want to participate in the giveaway, but just want to say hi and wish my husband a happy birthday, feel free to do so as well! 😉

Thank you for celebrating with me, and good luck!

*Any questions about rule details, please contact me to let me know!

Seasons of Inspiration

Tornado Warning

Image by RaGardner4 via Flickr

Here in Indiana, weather is…unpredictable.  The calendar may say that we are firmly in the spring season, but nature has its own ideas.

Last week, I…

…hid in the basement during a tornado warning.

…took pictures of hail pelting my car.

…pulled on my fuzzy boots because it snowed. Again.

…woke up in the middle of the night as a thunderstorm rolled in and I thought a tree crashed through my roof. (That’s happened before.  Twice.  So, you can understand my paranoia.)

…basked in beautiful sunshine as I ate my lunch outside, to the delight of my sun-starved skin.

It’s both awe-inspiring and humbling to see the influence that nature has on us and how we in turn, respond to it.

I have been working on a couple of Works In Progress now, which isn’t as confusing as it seems since they’re so different and are at different stages.  My first WIP is in a revision stage, and honestly, I plan to focus on it more this month than my second WIP, which is only in the rough draft stage.  So even though first WIP gets more of my structured writing time, I still let my muses play with second WIP during random times like driving to work or while my store is empty.  That’s the beauty of a rough draft: unbridled creativity and imagination.

My first WIP, I started writing in the fall during NaNoWriMo.  It’s dark and disjointed and looking back, probably reflected the madcap emotional turbulence of both NaNoWriMo and working through two retail jobs during the holiday season.   My second WIP was born on a bitter morning, the bleak winter landscape a perfect setting for a character filled with the helplessness, anger, and resentment that biting, sub-zero temperatures can create.

This week,though, something odd happened as I drove to work.  Well, two things really.  First, because of extremely gusty winds (I’m talking blow-you-into-the-next-lane-without-warning gusts), I ended up driving 5-10 miles under the speed limit.  (No comment on my normal driving speed.)  Second, I realized that I was dreaming up words for another WIP.

Now, this bout of inspiration didn’t just happen.  The WIP my muses brought to mind is one that I’ve had in the back burner for basically my whole life, but I have never dared to capture it in words.  My current WIPs were born out of fun ideas that I followed to their inevitable conclusions.  They are exercises in my mental stamina and discipline to finish a task. This other WIP, though…it’s different.

This WIP (which for clarity we’ll call third WIP) matters the most to me because it encompasses all of my unspoken fears, hopes, loves, dreams.  It’s basically a straight window into my soul.  As such, even thinking about it both inspires me and intimidates me.  I’m too emotionally invested in it, which is why I never felt like I can write it the way it needs to be written.  The way it deserves to be written.  So, I’ve gotten used to just ignoring it.

But then, the wind whipped just right and I imagined a curling wave.  The humidity and warmth reached a specific threshold and I delighted in memories of tropical sun showers.  My cautious wariness of other cars brought to mind the winding road to Hana (on Maui).

Now, I can’t help but wonder: should I follow my muses into this third WIP?

SO TELL ME: I know writers find inspiration everywhere, but do YOU have seasonal “moods” when it comes to your WIP? Do YOU find yourself reading a book or genre during specific times of year because it “felt” more like summer or winter?

The Count of Monte Cristo is My New Novel Role Model

Cover of "The Count of Monte Cristo (Barn...

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My husband is a proud, self-proclaimed non-reader.

Don’t get me wrong.  He’s read all the classics, and has probably read more of those than I did.  (In high school, I could take tests on books I’ve not read and ace them because the tests revolved more around themes and big picture things versus knit-picky, scene specific details like his tests were.  Don’t worry, he still graduated valedictorian with a perfect 4.0 GPA in an uber-competitive private school.)  But, he definitely does NOT have my love for reading books.  He doesn’t wax poetical about the feel of the paper, the smell of a crisp new book, nor does he get starry-eyed delighted by a fantastical new read.  He rolls his eyes when I get excited that a book became available for me at my local library (Finally! Y’all need to quicker!).  He looks askance at my piles of books that signal that I’m planning on another reading marathon (where I read through my day off from work into the night, oftentimes devouring whole stacks of books by the time dawn rolls around).

However, despite all the eye rolling and sighs and proclamations that “books are stoopid,” he does have a favorite: The Count of Monte Cristo.

We brought it along to listen to on our 20+-hour road trip to Florida last September.  He listens to it repeatedly as he works on the house.

In short, he’s a fan.

And, in true fandom form, when asked why he loves this book so much, he just chuffs, and says, “Because it’s awesome.”

But then a wonderful thing happened.  The other night, we decided to watch the (ridiculously horrible, why does it even pretend to be Count of Monte Cristo because it’s nothing like the book) movie starring Jim Caviezel, and I was able to glean a lot from the husband’s utter disgust toward the film.  Between horrified outbursts of “They weren’t even friends!” and “That’s not what happened at all!” I developed a picture of why he liked the story and what about it I can emulate in my own story telling.

First, Why He Liked The Story.

The Story Delivers.

The main reason why the husband loves this story is because it delivers on its promise for revenge. The story starts out with a poor, naïve Edmond Dantes, and ends with him transformed as the larger-than-life, stone cold Count of Monte Cristo.  He spent years plotting his revenge against four men who betrayed his trust, and, in the end, he delivered his revenge.  There was no flip-flopping to create unnecessary tension or drama.  These men ruined Dantes’s life.  They were the bad guys.  They deserved what they got.  The End.

[To see how a revenge story can fail to deliver its promise, I would direct you to the movie Law Abiding Citizen.]

A lot of Change, A lot of Range

The story, setting, characters…all undergo huge changes.  First of all, there’s the timeline. Dantes is in prison for fourteen years, and uses another ten years to plot his revenge.  The settings cover from Turkey to France. The character types range from pirates to princes.  The characters themselves swing from poor to rich or rich to poor; ill repute to honor to public shame.  And, even though the plot could have been non-stop action from start to finish, Dumas allowed the tension and conflict to build and fall throughout the story.  Sure, there may have been some parts that could have been edited out, making the story a little bit tighter, but overall, he knew how to pace the story to keep the reader interested and hungry for more.  Plus, like I said above: the story ends in a way that fulfills the reader’s expectations.  Dantes gets his revenge, and gets the girl.

The Count of Monte Cristo Was a BAMF

It’s not enough to know that The Count slowly and patiently laid the groundwork to utterly destroy any shred of happiness or prosperity that the four backstabbers acquired while Dantes was imprisoned, which alone makes him worthy of his BAMF title.  Dumas goes a step further, and also shows other people’s reactions to The Count.

For example, The Count wasn’t just rich and powerful because he found a lost treasure.  We know it, because The Count traveled with a speed unheard of in that day and age (he kept fresh horses around willy-nilly, which is the equivalent of rolling around in a Lamborghini).  We see it by the way members of polite society were in awe of him, and tripped over themselves to be acquainted with him.  We see it in the way his servants didn’t want to displease him, because they didn’t want him to send them away.  Finally, after he totally ruins four families’ lives, he sails off into the sunset with a nubile young thing as his new love.  If that doesn’t scream BAMF, I don’t know what does.

[Side note: The husband protests to the term BAMF because it sounds like an explosion caused by a water balloon and not worthy to describe this awesome colossus of a man.]

What I Got Out of It:

So, I know all of this fan gushing can really be distilled to the same time-honored principles in writing, namely show don’t tell and write memorable characters.  But, I think my writerly aha moment came to me when the husband shared, “The Count does the things I would do, or wish I could do.”  The Count is more than just another memorable character, a BAMF, an awesome colossus of a man.  He allows the reader to be engaged in the story itself.

I’ve recently become so caught up in the story line or plotting of my latest WIPs, that I forgot the most basic rule of engaging the reader.  Heck, that’s one of the reasons why I write.  I want to write a story that creates the hungry, obsessive need to read into the middle of the night.  Sure, there are many ways to do this, but I think the most basic way is to create characters that would resonate with the reader.  Not even that they need to be believable characters, but that they are so larger than life, that the character(s) make me believe in them.  The rest of the story will come from the character’s decisions and the conflicts that the MC faces as the result of those decisions.

Story, then, doesn’t come from carefully plotting out the MC’s decisions; it comes from the following through on what the MC decides as he overcomes the obstacles we crazy writers throw in his way.  This creates more complex and believable characters, a more engaging read, and creates readers out of non readers.

At least, that’s what I got out of movie night this week.

What about you?  Any fun, writerly aha moments float your way?

I Go Without

“Starve”

Henry Rollins

“I stay out late
I go long
I lose sleep
I go without
I go long
I go all night, go all night
I make the colors go
I push my senses out

I keep my existence lean
I starve.”

For the past two weeks, I could have authored “Starve.”  I’ve had to cover for a sick co-worker, and so have only had one full day off for the past fourteen days.  It’s been hard to accomplish the things that I’ve wanted to do (write, read, sleep) when I barely had time to do the things I needed to do (pay the bills, train, eat).

But, since this is the Year of No Excuses, I channeled my focus away from those things that I can’t control toward things that I can.  So, even though I haven’t had much time to sleep (let alone blog), I still kept my priorities: I added to my WIP (Scrapped) everyday, even if it was just a line or two.  And, I read a few books.

Ever since I wrote my guest post for Sierra’s Writing Adventure, the words “Your time is limited…” has been weighing heavily on me, a reminder to focus on my goal (become a published novelist), and those things that would lead me to my goal.  So, even though reading and writing don’t seem like lofty goals, when time is even more limited than usual, I sometimes had to choose between reading or writing or a full night’s sleep.  I had to strip “life” down to the bare essentials and focus on what will set me up for success in the future.  Since I want to be a published novelist, the essentials became: write a lot and read a lot.  Everything else was secondary.

SO TELL ME: What have YOU sacrificed to get you to your goal?